Advice to Christian Philosophers + Advice to Christian Apologists

There are times when I am studying and I wonder: Why am I doing this? What is a minister doing in a graduate program in philosophy?

I am much more interested in discipleship than in philosophical logic, yet I spend a lot more time thinking about the latter. I am much more interested in justification in terms of atonement before God than notions of epistemic justification, yet I spend a lot more time thinking about the latter. It’s not that I don’t love philosophy, I do. I just love ministry more.